Yes, I want to hear your song, and notice the dog’s funny face, and handle the dinner that is browning too quickly, and give my husband the attention he deserves when he walks in from work. I want to do it all, and make everyone happy, and feel loved by me.
The problem is that they all seem to happen at once. I know that the opportunities with my kids are slipping through my hands like water in a strainer. I want to be there and hear them, yet I always feel distracted; many times distant from the other chaos around me.
I go to bed each night vowing that I will handle things better tomorrow. That I will listen with my entire self tomorrow. That I will sit and talk; not just standing with dish towel in hand ready to get back to what I was doing. I believe wholeheartedly in balance and moderation. I want to use the skills in each day, yet I feel like I fail so very often. I want to be a better mother, better wife and better daughter. A better friend, better community member, and sometimes even better to myself.
I will admit that on days when I have a few more minutes to myself first thing in the morning it does help. I will work on saying “no” to unnecessary things. I will work on reconsidering the importance and value that I place on things that really aren’t as vital as I make them appear to be. I will listen more to myself, and less to strangers and those who aren’t in my best interests.
With that, I hope it allows me to hear a little more; to really hear a little more.
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